Monday, March 5, 2012

Expectations

Dear God,

Sorry if I haven't been able to speak to you lately.  I want to thank you for showing me that I can achieve big things if I do my best.  I just feel a little bad cause even though I did something good, my parents don't even show a little interest in the subject.  I know that at times they show that they care and that they are really proud of me, but when I feel that I have achieved something really big, they just don't seem to care  :((   This morning I was already feeling bad cause of my English teacher.  She said that we got a low score in our project because of me.  She didn't even let me explain.  She just told me to stop making excuses and that it was MY FAULT.  I know it may be partly my fault, but I can't accept the fact that she got mad at me for something I didn't even know I was supposed to do.  Sure she can get mad at me for passing in late, but I don't think she has the right to not even let me explain.  I felt so bad I wanted to cry.  I tried to stop my tears cause I didn't want others to see.  I wanted to let my feelings out so I told my friend about it.  I felt a little bit better after that.  

I hate my exams.  I got a low score in Physics and English.  The score written on my test paper was 49/90.  I was so shocked.  When I rechecked I was kinda relieved cause I got a 69.  When I told my teacher that she made a mistake, that's when she started blaming me for "my" mistake (the project).  I really hate my tech score.  I was so proud that I got a perfect score then my teacher (again) calls me and tells me she made a mistake in checking my paper.  So my score now is only 58/60.  My Religion is also the same.  I got a 65 but because of incorrect checking, I got a 63  -.-  they make me expect so much, but I can't really blame them cause they are only human.

that's all.  Thank you for listening to my problems.  I just don't know who to talk to.  I feel that I can really express and share my feelings here.  I love you so.

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