It's been such a long time since I last blogged. College life really is very hard. The only thing that keeps me going is my motivation. I lost my motivation at the start of the 2nd semester because I kept getting low grades at my plates, but when I got a high grade at VT and GR I started getting my motivation back. I told myself "see, you CAN get a high grade, just keep moving forward". BUT, my motivation last semester was to get in the football team at my college, but last Friday, that was the first day of training with them, I didn't really enjoy myself. I felt small because all of them were already so good. I didn't feel like I belonged. And just yesterday, I joined our team in my old school in their training. Same thing happened, I didn't enjoy myself. That 1 sport that I love doing, that sport that makes me happy when I feel down... I'm starting to lose interest. I don't want to give up on football, but I just can't seem to find any motivation to keep playing. I don't see any reason why I should continue. Please help me get my motivation back..
Thank you for listening.
